I am a runner. It gives me an identity. It is who I am. I have been a runner for over 30 years. (I started at birth- Haha). I love to run, to get up early in the morning and run through neighborhoods before the world and sun wakes up. Running is a GREAT way to start my day. However, I am a runner no more; time to move on.
I am also a competitor. For me, running and competition go hand and hand. When I run races, I compete with all the other runners. My goal is to finish number one in my age category and in the top 5-7% of all runners in the race.
I have run 5 marathons. Disney was my first, Nashville Country Music was one of my best, St. Louis was on a cold, rainy day and I ran my PR (personal record). Boston Marathon was an amazing experience and Kansas City was my last and worst. In addition, I have run numerous half-marathons, triathlons, 10K’s and 5’s. I did not run just to run; I ran to get faster and stronger and improve my time from the last run.
I tell these details to share how much running means to me. Or, I should say, how much running meant to me. I am no longer a runner; my body tells me it is time to move on. A major injury did not occur, but I can feel a difference in my knees. It was time to stop. At the time of this writing, I have not been running for about 6 months.
I choose to give up a part of who I am. Finding a new purpose and why behind this choice really helped me with this transition. My why included being able to stay active and fit as I age. The threat of injury was also a factor. At times I do struggle when I see someone running. When I am feeling down, I concentrate on my why and the adventures for my active future. I revisit the reasons that I choose to no longer be a runner.
Looking at my future and concentrating on what I do have instead of focusing on what I lost helps me with the transition. I choose not to run. It brings me joy now that I get to continue to walk, exercise, hike, and enjoy life! What are you focusing on in your future?